So when i last left you, i had told the bereavement team and had my bloods…definitely pregnant!!
Ive been dying to update all week but OH MY GOD (imagine Janice from Friends when saying that)!!!! I have NEVER been this exhausted in my entire life. Im an insomniac usually so thought i could handle tired, but this is like a whole other level. I wake up early full of beans, (which is the total opposite to what I’m like when not pregnant) at about 7am and have approximately 5 hours before I’m totally floored by exhaustion. Even blinking makes me feel like i could pass out from tiredness. Work has been a real struggle even though I’m just sat at my desk, by the afternoon my eyes struggle to focus on what I’m typing. My contact lenses dry out so fast too, i remember this from my last pregnancy though. Washing my hair has become a gargantuan task that takes all the energy i have to even contemplate! Its unreal, i was lucky with Milo, i think as i was so full of nervous energy with him, that i never felt this symptom, but of course being so relaxed this time round, means it hits me like a ton of bricks.
My appetite is still through the roof, and i basically graze all day! I even had to have two breakfasts one day and when hubby forgot my porridge one day, oh it was like the biggest disaster ever…until i had a bacon sandwich! Im wanting savoury more than sweet, although i am partial to a few (whole packet) of Jaffa cakes still! I occasionally go off tea every so often for a day or even a few hours…thats weird.
My blood pressure keeps dipping too, which makes for an odd light headed feeling but as long as i sit still and drink plenty, it sorts itself out.
My memory is like a sieve…baby brain has truly kicked in, even with alarms set for meds, i keep being late as I’m distracted by food or on the phone so don’t hear the alarm, hubby has taken to texting me at the appropriate times! Making decisions is hilarious, especially if I’m distracted, i just look at hubby confused until he essentially makes the decision for me or repeats very slowly what my choices are, even then it can be 5 minutes before i can actually decide.
My mood is OK but my temper is short…I’m not suffering fools gladly and unfortunately for him, hubby keeps being a fool. He has felt my wrath twice this week already…not my fault he does or says stupid things mind you…the bumper amount of progesterone is not helping with my temper I’m sure but he really can be bloody annoying at times! I have to say he’s also a superstar, cooking for us, packing me a mighty lunch, doing the housework etc etc.
We have however mastered the devil jabs, do them at night, no rage, just a bruised booty!! Only 1 more of those to do thankfully!
The vivid dreams have kicked up a gear too, i had 3 last night, i know because i wake up at the end of each one and have to pee, they feel so real at the time but can barely recall them come morning. I am aware I’m dreaming though. If I’m not having vivid dreams then i suffer night sweats, I’m in summer PJs, very unusual for me as i really feel the cold normally, I’m constantly adjusting the thermostat at home when we go to bed, to try and combat them!
Ive not heard anything about my early scan yet, I’m not worried as we have time, ill be 8 weeks on Christmas Day and know my area like to wait to 8 weeks before scanning as there is more to see, so i think it’ll be christmas week that we have it. Buuuut, we are all (and by all i mean all my colleagues, people on Babycentre, friends and family) very excited to see how many are in there, I’m still saying twins by the way!
Its so so lovely to have such an army of supporters, both virtually and in real life, its not mine and hubby’s baby, its OUR baby, theres a whole community waiting with baited breath, and rather than that being a pressure, its fabulous to have so many people to share this experience with.
Of course, not everyone has been so positive, but thats to be expected, there are still people i feel are bored by this journey, or people who think they know so much, can predict what will happen with regards to my journey! I accept this and just ignore them, they are FAR outweighed by positive, super interested people for which i am so incredibly grateful.
I did an internet cheapie pregnancy test last night just because I’ve never had a positive on one of those before, and because for a fleeting moment i thought maybe i just wasn’t bleeding due to the devil jabs! It was good and positive even with evening wee that was practically water coloured, hahaha! Ill do another clear blue digital come Monday just to hopefully see it say 3+ as the last one was 2-3. Im also not suffering many physically symptoms, so needed reassurance for that reason too. My tummy is swollen but no cramping, my boobs are huge but not sore, my hips don’t hurt, I’m not nauseated….but i am only 5 weeks and 2 days and I’m sure in the next couple of weeks, ill regret mentioning this lack of symptoms!
Week 5 is when the heart develops….so a very important week in baby’s development. Given that Milo had a congenital heart defect, I’m taking this in my stride, not worrying, i have a good feeling that i will get my take home baby this time. Its there though, in the back of my mind, not that i can do anything whatsoever to affect it!
Anyway, I’m starting to feel sleepy again, so time for a lie down before heading out to the local walk in centre as i think i may have a water infection. Joy!
Love, Little Miss PMA xxx