Oooooh im so annoyed!
Following the huge red bleed on Friday, and another one following a bowel movement the same day. Ive had old blood every time i wipe after going to the loo. To my mind that means im still bleeding somewhere but as im resting its turning brown before being expelled.
My reasoning is that after a 10 minute walk on Sunday i bled a little again, it was tinged red so clearly still fresh somewhere.
Anyway, as they couldnt see a reason for the bleed on Friday, my mind has being doing overtime and i decided id speak to my GP today regarding the referral to my consultant and a swab for infection.
I need a GP referral to get my extra care started, i was discussing this with my bereavement midwife literally 2 hours before i started bleeding. It felt like id gotten too far ahead of myself and the bleed was the reminder not to count my chickens.
Anyway, i called my GP this afternoon, they operate a telephone triage service, so a Nurse Practioner called me back.
I explained i needed a referral and she then questioned me as to why i needed it. I went through my loss history (surely she had access to my notes) and she begrudgingly agreed to do it, eventually.
I then asked about a swab for infection. She asked if i had symptoms and i explained it was more for reaasurance as i lost my last pregnancy to infection despite having no symptoms.
She was having none of it. Said she didnt want to swab me unless the hospital had said it was necessary, as there was ‘no need’ otherwise.
I teared up in anger at this point. Id just gone through my f**king history and explained why i was worried but it meant nothing to her. There were no apologies for my losses, no empathy, no reassurance.
She did eventually agree to leave a swab on reception to do myself ‘if i felt that strongly about it’. Oh so its OK for me to poke about up there with no medical training but not worth bothering you with.
Im so disappointed. After the amazing care shown at EPU and with one of the GP’s coaching me through labour with Millie, i expected better.
Ive seen this NP before, to request the pill last October when i felt like i was going insane with my cycles. She made it clear then that she didnt understand anxiety and needing control/reassurance so i dont know why i expected any better but i was so hoping for reassurance.
Clearly i expected too much.
So until this bleeding stops, im staying at home, none the wiser as to what is going on.
Im not good at not being in control so this is hard for me.
Love, Little Miss PMA xxx