Happy Half Birthday

Happy Half Birthday

6 months today!!! Flown by. Although in those first few weeks i didnt think we would make it.

Little T is an absolute delight these days. Except when he is teething and/or stays up late. Which is a lot at the moment. But its fine because mostly he is awesome 

I still worry EVERY morning that he has died in his sleep (he is in his own room). I wake up and lie there waiting for him to make a noise, im too scared to go in first in case i find him lifeless. I remind myself daily that he is fine but im not sure ill ever stop feeling this way.

During the day though, we are having the best fun together. We have 4 classes a week and my anxiety about attending new ones is virtually zero. 

Support network is set up, and brilliant. 

We start weaning at the weekend. We are going with baby led. Im nervous and i dont know why. Perhaps because i have had such a strange relationship with food. Perhaps because its a sign time is flying past. Whatever it is, im fully kitted out now, and the veg is bought so i just need to take the plunge.

Changing tac slightly…

I had my 1st really down day yesterday. Id forgotten how low i could feel. It was preceeded by an anxiety attack the night before. It was a shock. I felt tearful all day. Its passed now but it was a stark reminder of why i take my meds.

Im currently having a kid free shop, its weird and i miss him. But its been nice to eat a sandwich slowly and drink a warm cup of tea. Haha

Love, Little Miss PMA xxx


11 thoughts on “Happy Half Birthday

  1. Aww I still worry that my daughter has died in her sleep every morning, I still check her every hour until I go to sleep myself ( I just can’t help it!) glad to hear you are doing well! I do baby led weaning, it was difficult at first I felt myself panic every time she gagged, but now it doesn’t bother me at all! I’m sure you will get on great with it, it’s a lot of fun! Xxx

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    1. I check the vid monitor 20 times an hr!!! Thank god for technology.
      Im quite excited to see how he reacts. Hes been in his highchair when ive eaten this week to get used to it and seems ok. Gets a bit bored so im hoping food will keep him interested lol xxx

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      1. Food keeps her entertained lol, it goes everywhere, especially if she decides she’s done (I know she’s done now because she bashes whatever she’s eating into mush then rubs it all over her face lol xxx

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  2. Awwww he is so precious. I’m sorry you had a shit day recently. I don’t know if your psych has mentioned this to you but mine told me that it is very common for a low day to follow an anxious period or day and I do find that pattern to be true for me. I just mention it as I’ve seen a few therapists over the years and only one has seen fit to tell me this!!! Glad you are enjoying your little button. I’d trade my 17mth old at the moment – she is haaaaard. Far out. But it all ebbs and flows. Waiting for easier times to come back my way here!!!

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