Why is it, every month is the same? Every month i wonder if this will be the month i get pregnant naturally.
I don’t know why i do it. I know we have 0.1% chance of it happening, but every month i wonder. And then i come on, either early on bang on time, according to my app.
Its a monthly emotional rollercoaster, its exhausting.
Honestly, i think trying for a baby turns most women into a bag of emotions! From hope, to loss, to desperation, to despair to guilt to anger.
And it repeats, every single month.
That tiny glimmer of hope is actually awful, it’d be easier if it was 0% chance.
I was due on today. It hasn’t arrived as yet.
Tea tasted funny the other day, I’ve had lower back ache, and so i wonder.
But, I’m likely just having a longer cycle due to polycystic ovaries, or I’ve not ovulated again.
But i hope, and i wonder and i wish. Only to have it all taken away again.
Infertility is hard. Its cruel.
Love, Little Miss PMA xxx