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Day 2

Day 2

I think i fell asleep about 2am. The screamer chatted til 12.45am but then i had obs at 1am so couldn’t settle again.

I woke up a couple of times and have been wide awake since 5.10am.

Coupled with the 20 minutes of sleep Sunday, i think its safe to say I’m probably a bit tired.

I’m having to have regular obs as the Lemtrada can affect my heart rhythm (so far so good) and the steroids can affect my blood sugar. I tested at 15.5 and 14.9 yesterday. The higher one was just after i ate and the 2nd one 2 hours later, but i had had a packet of crisps and a chocolate bar inbetween as the steroids make me HUNGRY

The chest tightness from yesterday was relieved with my inhaler easily enough. I also got very achy like i did back in the early days of my symptoms and i felt a burning itchy sensation but no rash as yet.

Lets see what today’s dose will bring

To be continued…

The steroids are still vile as is the taste they leave

Very few other symptoms, other than insomnia…

Love, Little Miss PMA xxx

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Day 1 of Lemtrada

Today i arrived at the hospital half an hour early. I didnt sleep a wink last night.

I was shown my bed, I’m in a ward of 4. I was last woman in. We have a screamer, a lovely lady who weeps a bit and the lady next to me is quite poorly and struggles to speak.

I’m the only 1 with MS. I’ve had bloods taken, swabs taken and pee’d in a cup.

Nothing of note happened until about 2pm.

I’ve had IV steroids (left a vile taste in my mouth), and I’m finally on the Lemtrada.

Its the stuff in that bright red bag. The stuff that can’t see light. The stuff that looks like it could kill ya. Yeah. Even the nurse described it as a toxic medication

I’m waiting on paracetamol and an antihistamine as ill spike a temperature and ill get an itchy rash.

My drip needs a new battery pack and i think my chest is feeling a bit tight.

I’ve been on the bloody thing less than 30mins and I’ve got a tight bloody chest.

What fun.

I’ve watched a lot of TV and I’m now watching The Meg.

Love, Little Miss PMA xxx

Holidays and Hospital Stays

Holidays and Hospital Stays

Last week we got back from 10 days in Northern Cyprus. We had a lovely time, Little T, particularly so!

The flights over were fine, but the layover in Istanbul was beyond stressful. Mum and my Bro went missing as we were separated getting off the plane, i had their passports and boarding cards, so they were stranded, and it took well over an hour for someone to take me seriously. This all because my Mum uses a wheelchair when travelling.

Anyway, we got to the hotel in 1 piece. Mums wheelchair spent the night at a different hotel mind you as it was unloaded incorrectly from the transfer!

My Grandad then passed away whilst we were there, but we tried to make the most of it. I think that’s what he would have wanted.

Little T was known throughout the hotel and down in the harbour. He managed with the heat incredibly well but isn’t a fan of a shower. He discovered chips and ate them everyday, along with Cyprus sausage, he learnt lots of new words and took lots of walks (not independently yet).

Since being back, I’ve booked Christmas dinner in Leeds, only to be told 20 minutes later, I’m having my MS treatment the week before Christmas and that kinda is the worst timing ever.

Ill be in hospital for 5 days from 17th Dec. Ill be given Lemtrada via infusion over those 5 days. The medication will bind to and destroy my white blood cells so ill be immunocompromised following the treatment. So being in a pub full of people 4 days later isn’t ideal!!!

Mind you, nor is handling strawberries due to the Listeria risk, but you gotta live, so ill be sat in the corner come Christmas day, keeping away from people!!!

I honestly thought after losing 2 babies and doing 9 rounds of IVF, I’d paid my dues, seems that’s not the case!

No rest for the wicked

Love, Little Miss PMA xxx

And now we know…

And now we know…

Today i had my appointment with the specialist MS doctor.

After much discussion of symptoms, and a few physical tests, it was decided i do have MS but dont present in a traditional way. Most people get worse through pregnancy as the immune system is lowered, whereas i am symptomless in pregnancy. My symptoms very much come and go, which the Dr thinks seems to indicaye my issues seem to resolve themselves after a period of time.

Im to go back in 3 months, i had blood tests today to check im compatible with one of the four drugs suggested for future treatment, and ill have another MRI before seeing the doctor again. He also wants me to have high dose steroids to tide me over whilst an MDT (multidisciplinary team meeting) is carried out to decide the best course of treatment.

Im happy its MS. I was dreading them saying they didnt know what it is, and having to start again.

Its obvious there are more inflammation spots on my brain since the MRI 5 years ago.

That i can manage.

But! The drugs arent ideal if i want to get pregnant again. I’d need to stop treatment for 12m before trying again. Plus, is it even fair? Do i put all my energy into being healthy for the one i have, or risk my health for a possible sibling?

My head says, stick with one and be the best you can be, but my heart is gutted. I’d like a sibling in time, but can i justify it? Will i be well enough to have 2? Will the break from meds make me experience more and more extensive symptoms

Its hit me harder than i thought tbh, i don’t know what to do with myself. I wanna run away but also know I’m so lucky to have my friends/family and son.

I just feel a bit meh.

Love, Little Miss PMA xxx

Nearly there

Nearly there

Since January, I’ve been on a mission to lose weight. The BMI calculator told me i was obese so it had to be done. I set my target as the top end of healthy and I’m pleased to say I’ve reached it. And a bit more!!!

Just 12lbs to lose to my ideal weight, which is 1.5st heavier than i was when i got pregnant with Little T.

I’ve not been following a diet as such, just sticking to around 1200 calories a day and as we’ve had such good weather, I’ve been pushing the pram a lot!!! I’d like to hit my target by September, so I’m not rushing the loss or at risk of putting it back on.

We are still a no on doing IVF in September, i really am enjoying Little T too much, but I’m pretty certain i want another in a couple of years so will renew the embryo freezing.

I started smoking again. Ugh. It started with one or two a week when the idea i may have MS came up, but quickly progressed to 20+ a day again. On Tuesday i bought a vape, something i never thought I’d do, and it seems to be helping, i am on the highest nicotine dose, but plan to reduce each time i buy more liquid. Fingers crossed!

My MS appointment is tomorrow. I’m anxious the Dr will say its not MS and ill be back to square one, I’m also anxious about how any medication will interfere with any potential future pregnancies. Lots of worries and questions to ask.

Today was Fathers Day, we took Mr Me for an amazing steak lunch and Little T got him a T-shirt and card.

Little T continues to delight us. He crawls as fast as a bullet out of a gun, is extremely well behaved, has mastered the ‘downward dog’ pose and his laugh is infectious. He loves chasing the cat, and loves us chasing him.

I love watching him, i just sit with a grin on my face, watching him eat, play with his toys, play with others. I absolutely adore him. Plus, he’s gorgeous. I just can’t believe how lucky i am to be his Mummy.

He is super close to talking too. He can say ‘uh-oh’ and ‘daddy’ with prompts. He understands SO much. His sleeping pattern is erratic at the moment, which usually coincides with a new skill so I’m thinking more words are coming, as he doesn’t seem overly keen on standing/walking!!

Love, Little Miss PMA xxx