Bad bereaved parent

It was Milo’s anniversary on 13th. I forgot. Only remembered today as facebook showed me a picture of the flowers we received after we lost him.

What a shit parent i am.

I think of Milo and Millie almost daily but i feel so guilty for forgetting

Yes i was busy with Little T, we had group, his passport application needed to be signed, a new cleaner started and we needed bits from Tesco.

Is it OK to forget? Ill never forget them, ever, but i think its best to focus on the now.

Little T is here and needs me, needs me to be present, needs me to be all about him and i think thats OK, i think?

I think M&M would want me/us to live life to the fullest, to be happy, to enjoy what we have and not lament what we have lost

Love, Little Miss PMA xxx

New Year, No Plan

2018 is around the corner…its the first year in however long that i dont have a project 

Its either been; get pregnant or stay pregnant for so many years.

And now? Now there is no plan.

Its weird but utterly amazing. IVF and loss is exhausting. Its all consuming. This year there will be none of that.

2018 is about making memories…enjoying Little T and rejoicing that IVF isnt on the cards, nor is another loss.

We have 2 holidays booked, so far. Mr Me will despair if i book another break! So ill try not to! 

2018, im ready for you and i hope itll be one of the best

Love, Little Miss PMA xxx

Halloween Fun

As a bit of fun, i entered Little T into a cute baby contest. 

I by no means think he will win but if you want to have fun looking at cute babies, follow the below link

Cute Babies! 

We also won a free photo shoot last week. 

We got lots of images but here are a few halloween themed ones

He’s not a massive fan of the pumpkin costume and certainly not the hat, but it wasnt cheap so ive already had him in it twice and he’ll be wearing it all day today.

Its super fun dressing up babies!!! 

Happy Halloween everyone

Stay safe

Love, Little Miss PMA xxx